February 7, 2009

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  …just being…

  

  
  I walked this earth
  in deference
  to my exist
  a choice to be
  not mine
  but a consequence
  of love
  between two who cared
  for each other
  and me too
  when I came about to be
  in their celebration
  of feeling

  My make up
  a story of life evolving
  ingrained in new form
  a body of substance
  of todays…and perhaps some day
  as ethereal and timeless
  as the soul itself
  my essence…say some…
  a mere reflect
  of an almighty creation
  say others…
  and off course
  sheer chemistry…claim the fringe

  I was conscience
  at a level I could comprehend
  so much remains hidden
  as I lack surely
  sensibility of the rest
  my id
  insulates me from my fundamental
  elemental formations
  in this an imagine…of being greater
  than my layered parts
  that test theory…constantly
  as each facet, in suicidal demands of mastery
  underline their import

  Am I a congress
  of the many
  seeking a voice
  in this transition of evolve
  Am I…?
  who I think I am
  or just a journey in quest
  to another place
  another space
  a newer dimension
  or just one more nuanced layering perceived
  in a progression of discovery
  for purpose

  A goal
  of posts perpetually  moving 
  receding in and out
  of focus
  non constant and ever dynamic
  not a prisoner of stasis
  am I
  a distill
  of an innate narcissism
  assigning importance
  to my being
  my opinion
  and my voice

  Is this my song
  or a wail of lament
  on knowing satisfyingly
  my assessments
  as irrefutable truths
  captivated by a prejudiced need
  or am I in the end
  a fragment of a dream
  that pervades the cosmos
  as just
  so much gas
  spinning a story…expansive

  of I think…therefore…I am

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