April 14, 2005

  • lines in colour...stained



    the threads
    of connect...a yarn


    concocted...spun and twisted
    and hung dry


    a bleached harvest
    sorted...neatly combed...


    my fibre seedless
    its pristine exist


    a sterility of being
    nakedness...dressed suitably...


    in opportune colours
    bound by strings


    of attachment...worn
    to please and cover


    in nuanced veils
    as thoughts...amourously weave


    in shadow realms
    cross-pollinating the new


    as undercurrents stir
    in embedded swirls


    perpetual searching in hope
    seeking subsumation


    in multifaceted melds
    calls...in crossed connect


    as greying hungers
    thrusting deep into its earthy roots


    of dour brown
    staining the virginal white


    of wounded feelings
    stained by red bleeds


    as slash and flow
    drain moral colour


    as innocence sinks
    to ends of funeral black


    a pale exist
    of gloom...edged with blue


    memories twinged
    by tinkling laughter


    silenced
    by the yellown  glare


    of courage...eclipsed
    as storms cloud


    the sun kissed days
    knotting its weft of light


    within the warped denial
    of dark confine embroidering


    the tapestry
    I lie in...enfolded in layers


    the weave of words
    buried...within its body


    a shroud reflecting
    in stasis...lost to generations


     

March 31, 2005

  • in lusts-to live...questionable probe...of a mind.set




    Why...do you feed me
    mothering to adult...one so seeded in dualities...with desire
    in hushed voices satiate cries of hunger...or tune out the jarring
    cocooned in soft blanketing white noise...to shroud in lulling melody...my fire


    banked by prose-built walls
    of armour worded in harmony..strung together, in collectives bound
    by acceptable chords in lock-step march...with  'scaler' rules
    inducing stupor, of poison or elixir...hypering the common in masked confound


    of quiet highs...oggling at swing and sway
    fixates by a sirens call...as sense reverts to base...lost among the riches
    clocked in-sync with societal terms...geared as cogs in systemic machines
    enmeshed...twists and turns...churning of an 'all'...writ in niches


    in cracks of focus...chaos grows
    battling divergence shuffles or a racing heart...with pincered moves
    contained to dance...or rebel within escapist dreams and  interludes
    in freedom to thresh unhindered... in bared 'truths' stuck outside...the groove


    lives beyond dogma...or its webs
    of belief sustained by indrawn breath..in gasps wrung...from predominant flow...
    in passions high to smudge the
    pristine bleak emptiness with etchings...
    seemingly insignificant...yet so causal in their reach...as up-heavals grow


    catalysed to immensities...in outpourings
    on 'histories'  inertial canvas brushed scribbles brewed with fatelines of evolve
    a struggle eternal...as lingering questions probe to understand
    our when and  where...the what and why...for direction chosen to resolve


    with  formal burial of lives spelt out
    in graven words...with heads stone in absolution...reflect for all to see
    the last rites for the dying spirits...in inevitable decay...to release
    till an 'I' lasts...perpetually ingrained in the need for you...to be free...


     

March 29, 2005

  • An ode to the measure of institutions...or its men


     


    aaagh...


    so cutting...the scythe of measure
    of men... adjudged by 'gods'
    'so plebian in express'
    vis-à-vis their givens...supposed...as ones to treasure


    who...vide ritualized decrees define
    preemptive authority to exorcise...hidden ghosts
    spirited as 'riches' of lingua...or builders of 'Babel's'..
    of cocky towering...to the divine...


    or are they...


    first citizens...anointed priests that chair
    bunkered in  ‘walls of eminent silence’...
    in academic brokering to  ivory...the outside
    an insiders skeletal...do they bare...


    lost souls pecked...as vultures then consume
    its rotting flesh...clean...in this temple...
    ‘marking’ passages...to oblivions...wherever to
    in ' heavens' grade or...'hells' subsume


    or turn away


    as second class citizenry...to slap or plunder
    with cheek...duly offered on the altar in idealized spirit...
    to trials of conscience...to be moved
    who must then...I wonder?



    who must...to plastic ideals...then surrender?

March 27, 2005


  • manicured and trimmed the fabric...or shroud...of lives


    Scissored
    snipped segments
    to shrivel and curl..as the stress heats
    to dross...the once so woven in...thread
    so plugged in...in connect...an orgaistic  excesss
    in ties bound...to be dispensed with


    in this now
    as today's...unwelcome discards...so cut off
    and plucked out...in reality checks
    of the massed  body with viewpoint...ideals...like clinging lint
    of dusty values brushed of...or on as a sheen
    of all thats seen so...or deemed so...as too loose...so kool


    the 'totally'  non-conforming
    ripped or shorn from ...its nurturing roots
    trimmed down or  attenuated...watered down futures
    'ageing' in resolve and mellowed fray linked with...fresh evolve
    so torn...and soo beyond containment
    of rule books or border



    lines barbed and drawn
    in ruled beds wired ...to be laid
    inflexible positions...sanctioned amidst the teeming chaos of patterns
    tears...tiny nicks...nibbling at the neatly laid impose of dominates
    whilst all dross...defined so by a given centrality  
    be swept away


    and dumped
    suitably disposed off...and trashed
    as floods of unseemly thoughts...stored in very private spaces
    in dark recesses where  the unwanted lurk hungering
    repressed behind apperance...covers to to emerge from  again
    when the dam breaks and it will somedy


    someday soon



March 1, 2005


  • 18th feb 2005


     


    Requiem


    In worlds
    as seen thru mine eyes
    there is...
    was....and are
    so many ways to heaven
    She's ...one such
    who lit my path
    in my journeys
    thru lifes ecstasies...or its
    tortured passages


    To my  muse
    all my poems
    that she lent reason, and
    a voice too...

January 19, 2005


  •  


     


    wind dancer.....              


    i


    be a dervish
    a leaf...withering in wait
    for the felt ultimate
    to fall...a drift


    in trembling flutter
    in moves blown...
    heralding...your invisible presence
    a cool zephyr


    in sync...in tune and in command in
    our symbiotic waltz
    an interactive messaging...an interlude
    where we dance


    untrammled....

November 7, 2004

  • in parallels

    they emerge...
    slipping into the night
    of my surround
    unheard  and unseen
    these shadows of my mind
    in search
    for avenues
    roads that lead away
    from this pent up urge

    consumed in
    mouthfuls chewed on
    of flesh blood and mind
    in a wait...so dammed
    by circumstance
    its substance riddled by
    absence...of enabling opportunity
    or a canvas..denied
    for my vision...

    in release seeking...
    an interlude...artistic
    of my flow...meld and spread
    a transient frame...brushed off or overlaid
    windowing my immerse
    perhaps yours to...
    in echos...if so seen
    sensed or heard
    at all...

    do  you...or any one ...
    hear me
    a mere voice...quiet
    in acceptence
    or am i...too obtuse
    beyond discernment...by choice
    is my song to be
    only for the empty chairs
    if so, then why...

    i wonder
    why...is this silence
    so deafeningly loud ...
    excruciating...in my weakness
    do my ghosts whisper
    sweet surrender...
    to their world
    where temptations of spirit...now...
    be limpid...in repose

    is this 'ones'  life...sought
    by the  dead...?

November 2, 2004

  • a 'new'...perspective



    a totem god!
    once tree of life
    can 'perspectives' hew
    so much more...in etched seperation
    unrelenting cry
    spelling out afresh
    new 'favoured' truths
    ...to ply...


    does sap...fulfill
    the festering
    or heal the open wounds
    presuming much, in intervention
    a welling out...expressed
    but left...to dry
    in righteous hardened scabs
    ...of reasoned why...


    as budding paths
    of emotive growth, pruned
    cut off...as discards
    humus...in rotting fermentation
    used and left...to die
    in heaps to shrivel
    when or where ever
    ...they do lie...


    of branches trimmed
    un redeemed
    in their potential
    without a future...writ in judgementals
    as a mistress favoured...or on a leash
    proverbialy the mutt
    a dogs life indeed to ponder
    yet...the but.t

    in refrain ever so enamored
    ...caught up in self ...
    in such rut

October 30, 2004

  • R.I.P.


    i guess
    somethings arnt
    just meant  to be...
    in ANY shade
    or colour


    so why
    flog then...a dead horse
    or beat
    an empty past...for crumbs
    in this one horse race


    ask this of one
    and try...understand this well
    for what
    whom and when
    and who...such strive


    Soo
    to move on...and not look back
    for any reason
    what-so-ever
    must be endured


    not just
    in articulate letter...but spirit too
    and in act
    via...mutual agreement
    or unilaterally


    as given 'truths'
    though harsh...and sharp
    are clean in cut
    innocent and without guilt
    in being...so plain

  • to roads ahead...



    post the 'night'...


    amidst...the din
    in shattered quiet...lies
    in expectation
    etched in gnawing wait
    as still life...
    vignettes


    drawn in swirls


    of blood...bled dry
    of passion's heat
    its flow... staunched
    by comatose exist
    as ardour... metamorphs
    to cool...


    brushed on colours


    kaleidoscope layerings
    on life's neutered canvas
    a heart's throb
    deep frozen...
    in painted-out pasts
    of...indifference


    and so lost


    'on a road less travelled'
    in its dark...flailings
    so-walled-in
    interred...in dying light
    inevitable...yet reborn anew
    as day dawns...
    replete...with a star...


    once more